How have you been?
Seriously — how have you been?
I’ve been mostly alright. At least none of my debilitating anxieties have materialized yet — in particular, it has been 834 days since I was last attacked by a dog!
Anyway.
What to share — what to highlight?
It’s been a while, I feel rusty.
I guess I’ll just start from the beginning, then skip the rest.
Shortly after I stopped writing here, I had the privillege to spend a couple of months walking solo in the Ukrainian Carpathians. The idea was to hike from the Polish to the Romanian border, following the route I’d planned (and failed quite miserably to execute) the year before. That should have taken only about three weeks, but because of the pandemic I decided to walk also from my home in Stryi to the beginning of the trail at the Uzhotskyi Pass, then back home from the endpoint in the village of Shepit along a parallel ridge.
It went something like this:
I’m still indulged by the fog pools in the morning:
I was surprised by how easy it was to find comfort up there. It was the end of the season, so many of the abandoned huts used by seasonal herders or berry/mushroom pickers were vacant again — not to mention the various times I was a guest of theirs, border patrol, park rangers, monasteries, villagers, weather stations, and I’m probably forgetting something.
National borders still fascinate as much as they confuse me. Walking along what used to be the border between Poland and Czechoslovakia 100 years ago made me wonder what today’s imaginary line between Ukraine and Romania might look like in another 100 years:
There’s definitely more to say. I realize I have yet to process how it all ended so abruptly just a couple of days before I’d have closed the loop back home. I’ll dig deeper into that and other aspects of that experience on another occasion, just not today.
Back from the mountains, Nastia and I split.
I’m not sure how much more I’ll eventually say about this. So, if you want to know something better ask.
I then spent another couple of weeks riding my bicycle back to Odesa. That looked something like this:
The worse roads for cars remain the best to ride on:
They wanted me to take photos of the Medzhybyzh Castle, and so I did:
They also wanted me to photograph Oksanivka, though I suspect they might not find these very useful either:
Ironically, I spent more time on the road in 2020 than I did in 2019 or in 2021.
There should now be a short and delightful paragraph piecing these fragments together and easeing you into the next part of the story — while it took me quite some time, I finally understood that’s not my responsibility.
Upon arriving in Odesa, and understanding that cross-border travel would remain inconvenient and expensive for the foreseeable future, I began scouting for something else to do, and developing a stationary lifestyle that honored the priorities and values I’d discovered on the road. I eventually settled back into tutoring math, and that has occupied the core of the time between my morning and evening rituals and away from my sacred weekends.
This has been executed imperfectly, of course — just like even on my best days on the road I might still get chaffed nipples or let my last bite of Snickers fall right next to dog poop, I’ll often mess up what should have been the most straightforward days in front of the computer.
At any rate, besides having been enough for my subsistence, some charity, a fair amount of pleasure and socializing, and eventually even saving for future endeavors, tutoring has also been unexpectedly rewarding as an experience in itself — it’s not only a good excuse to review and keep learning new math, but also a fabulous opportunity to appreciate the severe (and often damaging) limitations of thought and abstraction.
And so on — I relocated back to Lviv in 2021, cycle toured on vacation for the first time since 2016 (still fantastic), rode my first brevet since 2015, played my first game of Game of Thrones (the board game) since 2017, and who knows for what reason became interested in Formula One again for the first time since 1994.
An earlier version of this update attempted to make a more comprehensive list and develop that into a coherent story at least I might want to read and believe in, but I gave up. To those of you who might read this negatively, let’s both get used to disappointment — there’s likely more to come 😉
It will be fine.
This feels a lot like 2017, and that part of it I like — the vast open-endedness of the future ahead. Not that I can say I ever knew what laid ahead. And yet I’ve made it so far.
To be continued some time soon 🙂
See you when,
Mika
It is indeed good to see you writing again! It isn’t a coherent story but it is still a good piece of writing not from a stylistic point of view but from a point of view of a larger story of your life that you’ve been telling here.
And I couldn’t really understand this piece
There should now be a short and delightful paragraph piecing these fragments together and easeing you into the next part of the story — while it took me quite some time, I finally understood that’s not my responsibility.
by fragments you mean the pieces of stories of your life that you told above? And what’s the next part of the story that you’re referring to? Not your responsibility piecing these fragments together?
>> “by fragments you mean the pieces of stories of your life that you told above?”
yes 🙂
>> “And what’s the next part of the story that you’re referring to?”
the next part of the piece
>> “Not your responsibility piecing these fragments together?”
nope
Hi, Cael,
Really nice to hear from you.
Well, life’s been to me this eternal “diving into/getting over”, worth living, though, whenever I’m able to concentrate on the learnings!
Cheers, wish you the best travels and look forward when we’ll get tondonsome of these together!
Dad
Eu amo a foto desse bode de um tanto que eu quero enquadrar. Me manda em alta resolução. Tô falando sério.
Haha, também gosto muito dela! Combinado 🙂 Tenho que procurar aqui, mas te mando essa semana 😉
Hi Mika,
Sounds like a soulsearching phase. To find is an active endeavor … to achieve it you need to move. And with an open future there are ample directions to take…. 😉
Regards, Raf
My dear, I’ve been thinking of you these days. I’m happy you started writing again. How have I been? Heh. Depressed, got a divorce, way too many plants, better therapy, got into sewing. I’d like to know more about your life, with or without the blog. And, of course, my sofa bed is always there if you want to visit Prague and me and my cats.
Sounds like a fruitful progression! Thank you for sharing — thank you for the invitation, and let me know if you’d like to have a call one of these days 🙂
MÍCHOLAS, Que bom que vc voltou com seu blog! Li tudinho e entendi o tanto que meu inglês não tão perfeito assim permitiu! AMEI AMEI AMEI!
Fiquei realmente feliz por ter me sentido conectada a vc nesse dia tão especial: seu lindo niver!
Um beijão e saudades
<3
<3 <3 ! ! !