A conversation I had with a friend over the past couple of weeks put several conversations I’ve had with other friends over the past couple of years in perspective, and made me realize (finally capitulate?) that my intentions have been profoundly misunderstood.
This is my fault — my methods have been ineffective.
I’m taking a break from Not Mad Yet to listen, look for a different language, and perhaps even a different medium or format for what I have to share. I’m not abandoning the newsletter, but I don’t know when I might be back, and what it will look like when I do.
This is not signaling a deeper retreat from people either — quite the contrary! I believe I’ve spent too much time staring at the screen in front of me, and not enough time looking out the window to my right, if you know what I mean. I’m not feeling negative — maybe a little anxious and embarrassed, and otherwise curious about what this change of attitude might lead to!
If you’re interested, I’ve updated my website with a partial list of what I’ve been up to “offline” — as usual, I’ll be glad to share it if you want to know more about this decision or anything else 😉
Thank you for reading, forwarding, commenting, and donating — damn, thank you for hosting, visiting, hugging, crying, laughing, caring, playing, asking, trusting, accepting — this newsletter has been a gift, and I’m grateful to all of you who have helped me make it however you’ve felt moved to do <3
See you on the other side!
Mika, nothing in life is in vain. Neither successes nor failures. Because? I will answer with an answer you gave me many years ago …
I was in one of my very confused moments and we were talking when I said, “- I don’t even know what I came to do on Earth!” And you answered me “- I know what you came to do on Earth: live”. You were very very young and answered me with wisdom.
This is what we came to do on Earth: live. The rest are concepts, prejudices, impositions, not impositions, freedom, pseudo-freedom, most of the time involving some kind of supremacy, knowledge, power or information, or whatever.
Success and failure are part of this wonderful experiment called life. Therefore, we can change course at any time, without feeling embarassed. What didn’t work out according to our expectations, is inherent to us and can be changed at any time. Your life has worked and is working because you have an extraordinary capacity to evaluate yourself and change the course of your life according to your needs in the present moment. If it works according to your expectations, that’s fine. If it doesn’t work, that’s fine too and change the course again.
Love and admire you endlessly!
mom